It's getting harder and harder to be cheerful with the tests looming in the distance. I admit I did feel a little irritated by many little things today. Which isn't like me at all, when did I become so....so...irritable? I should be ashamed. In other news, Judo was awsome today. We did some freestyle groundwork with a partner, which was really fun. I think I'm better at groundwork than with throws, which isn't what I expected at all. Plus I finally got my Gi today. Now I don't have to be the only one in the class wearing a T-shirt. Yup, it's great to be able to work out and strech my muscles. I was itching for some physical activity for a week now. I'm definitly not the kind of person who can sit and study all the time. Saturday - Kendo, Judo and Kungfu! Yay!!!!

Hmm... how come no one notice my new hair style??? maybe it's always like this.... hm... Doh!

20 loves? Can they really be called love, Dex? I've had .... a few crushes ( ok, one ) on girl(s), but love? At that age? hardly. Did we, or at least did I know what love is at that age? I think not. It was at most infatuation. As time passed, It became indifferent to me whether or not I would end up with this person. As long as she's happy, I was and still is content. ( Or maybe I'm afraid of commitment, whichever ). Nostalgia? Yes, I'm nostalgic all the time. I miss the small book stand that was on my way home from school in China. I miss how LiWenJun, YanHuaWei and I would zig zag through the LiangShuiJing market to go home, while my mom would look for me everywhere on the main road. I miss the games I used to play with YanHuaWei on the way home. I miss the little "barbeque" I had in the big open space in TiYuan ( where I used to live in China) with RenPing and YanHong. I miss playing with JiangHongYi and bunch of other kids in TiYuan when the power goes off at night. I miss the last fireworks I had with my mother before fireworks were banned in ChengDu. I miss the dangerious little ally way we had to walk through to go home from school in grade 3. I miss the old tomb me and YanHuaWei discovered and were always too frightened to go close to..... I miss many many things. Sometimes I would ly under a canopy of trees, looking aimlessly at the sunlight bouncing off of and squeeze through the leaves. I would reminicent how life was and would've been as the wind sways the branches, uncover little patches of light that shimmer into my eyes. Then a cold wind would blow through my bones, and shock me back to reality. I would then realize that life have to, and will go on. Ok, I think I'll stop myself before I start losing it and start writing an autobiography. To think that I told the others to not make their posts too private -__- Damn you Dex for bringing out my emotional side! That's my final words before I go to sleep. What about the point of my argument? I forgot...

Ok so now I'm happy and bored so i decided to write something here (guan shui!)...this font is cool!! It's my favorite arial!(what the hell...it's Verdana?!) lol....yeah Dex is soo crazy and his record is so hard to break !!(40?? they'll be in my next life!) I'd rather be picky and choose the best one to be my mate ;) The guy I had/have a crush on just called me and instead I talked with his friend (!) for half an hour..things are getting weird ...I know i have ZERO chance but i can't control myself...Anyways, it's not the time to complain, right? Um..gotta write some news... news news....Dav allowed me to write how mean he is ;) i guess we had a fight? and I was mad for his stupidity and dumbness...lol...I'm kidding...he just misunderstood me and I was mad because he's suppposed to be one of my best friends~~meh it's cool now ...hehe..Dav I love you so don't you mind this! hehe...

Dav is lazy...he's trying to pass the mission of writing journals to us (i.e.poor friends)...but, yeah, I like this font...so maybe when I'm happy and bored I'll write something here. lol......

Ola...test test test

jee I wish I had the luck and look and mind like Dav.. well guess not...Doh!

remembering the Simpsons song "la la la la la la la la Home Work... la la la la la la la Home Work" Doh!

Hahaha... funny, I am doing....... Doh! better get back to the damn hard Calculas assignment...

I got 3 tests/midterms next week. Argh! I try not to show that the pressure is getting to me, but it is. On top of that, my lower lip hurts like hell from the canker sore that developed from the cuts I got when Bryzire backfisted me during sparring. That guy isn't as easy to avoid when he start to fight with full speed/power. I actually had to focus and use some effort to put him down. Anyways, ouch......It hurts to eat, it hurts to talk, it even hurts when I smile! So this week, I pretty much appears like a sombre and quiet guy who never smiles and eats very slowly. I'm turning into Dex so to speak. Oh, for some reason I suddenly feel like digging up IL2-Sturmovik and play that all the time. That and F/A-18 Korea and all those sims. I'm also hooked on Tekken 3, those guys fight like me sometimes!! Ah crap, hell of a time to be hooked on games. *repeat to self* Must study, must study, must study.....

Bumped into Jay today, havn't seen him for months. His arm is better now, but.....He got arrested, his mother called the cops on him, or so he told me. Why? I don't know, probably something to do with his frustration of his inability to do anywork now that he seriously wounded his arm. He was living in that Homeless shelter place beside where I live since Monday, cause his mother won't take him back. When I bumped into him, he was going to find a place to live. I hate to see his life getting worse and worse, but I feel powerless to help him. Goddamn it.....��ɶ�....

Yesterday was my birthday. I'm 19 now, finally. My birthday present? Two bottles of Japanese plum wine and one bottle of sake. One bottle of plum wine was from Jane, and the others were from Adam. Talk about scoring big :) Eva( Lin, not Su ) and Yilun bought me lunch at a japanese restaurant. They ordered so much food, it was the first time I ate so much sashimi in one meal :) That was probably the best birthday present I got yesterday, I mean how often does two cute girls buy you a big lunch anyways? :P So yeah, I'm 19 now, wow. Next thing I know, I won't be a teenager anymore...

Just handed in my Calculus assignment for this week. I'm once again relieved of the pressure of school work, for now. Yes, I do feel guilty about not updating this blog for such a long time. That's why I'm here isn't it? Nothing much happened really, there was a Sociology test on Tuesday. I did alright, considering the fact that I havn't went to any lectures for 2 weeks now. Seriously, if the prof is going to read off of the textbook -- which he wrote -- all term, then what's the point of going? Sit in an uncomfortable chair for 3 hours and constantly be reminded how I can better spend that time? He puts the "extra" stuff on the course website for god's sakes. The weather is getting a bit too cold for bike riding now. I thought I was going to lose my hands today after riding in the wind. Sadly, I have no gloves, yet. From what I heard, csc108 ( the computer science course ) 's midterm was really hard. Almost everyone I know who are in that class are complaining to me about how bad they did. Haha, I probably know more about the materials/assignments in that course than most of the actual students in that. I've helped out with at least 5 people with their work already. I don't mind, it's good for me. It'll make my foundamentals more solid. The new assignment in computer science looks hard. We have to make queues out of linked lists and manage simulated page files. Now you can see how my life is these days. Basically all school work. Well that and Kendo, Judo and Kungfu. Seriously, where am I going to find time for a girlfriend :P

I bought 6 DVDs during the weekend, that's a total of $50 wasted. I was working for the SEAS booth for the Senior Day 2002 in the Culture Center. I owe SEAS 6.5 hours of work, so I needed to make up for it. After work, I planned to head home directly. Then for some reason I decided to check out the video shop there instead. Well, an hour later, you can guess what happened. It was such a great deal, 3 DVDs for $25 tax included. I initially only wanted to buy 3 of them, but then the movie "Laputa Castle in the Sky" caught my eye. I was under the impression that the movie itself ( made by Studio Ghibli in 1986 ) was never realeased either domistically in Japan or Internationally on DVD. However, there it was, a DVD copy of the movie, right there in front of me. I just knew I had to get it, so instead of paying for the $15 on the price tag, I decided to go for the $25 special, pretty smart eh? Here's what I got: My Sassy Girl MY Wife is a Gangster Laputa, Castle in the Sky Spirited Away (the Japanese version, so it's "Sen to Chihiro no Kamikakushi" ) Gojoe ( The Record of the War of the Five Bridge, at least that's what the title says, the Chinese on the cover says "Ying Xiong" or "Hideo" for hero ) Musa ( or Warrior ) Among all these movies, I only regret buying Gojoe. Such a boring movie with plot that doesn't make sense. The sword fighting sucks too, Japanese should stick with making anime and love stories, not action movies. My Wife is a Gangster is ok, but it's not as good as some people told me. Everything else I really enjoyed watching. Oh, go get Musa if you can, it's pretty cool.