20 loves? Can they really be called love, Dex? I've had .... a few crushes ( ok, one ) on girl(s), but love? At that age? hardly. Did we, or at least did I know what love is at that age? I think not. It was at most infatuation. As time passed, It became indifferent to me whether or not I would end up with this person. As long as she's happy, I was and still is content. ( Or maybe I'm afraid of commitment, whichever ). Nostalgia? Yes, I'm nostalgic all the time. I miss the small book stand that was on my way home from school in China. I miss how LiWenJun, YanHuaWei and I would zig zag through the LiangShuiJing market to go home, while my mom would look for me everywhere on the main road. I miss the games I used to play with YanHuaWei on the way home. I miss the little "barbeque" I had in the big open space in TiYuan ( where I used to live in China) with RenPing and YanHong. I miss playing with JiangHongYi and bunch of other kids in TiYuan when the power goes off at night. I miss the last fireworks I had with my mother before fireworks were banned in ChengDu. I miss the dangerious little ally way we had to walk through to go home from school in grade 3. I miss the old tomb me and YanHuaWei discovered and were always too frightened to go close to..... I miss many many things. Sometimes I would ly under a canopy of trees, looking aimlessly at the sunlight bouncing off of and squeeze through the leaves. I would reminicent how life was and would've been as the wind sways the branches, uncover little patches of light that shimmer into my eyes. Then a cold wind would blow through my bones, and shock me back to reality. I would then realize that life have to, and will go on. Ok, I think I'll stop myself before I start losing it and start writing an autobiography. To think that I told the others to not make their posts too private -__- Damn you Dex for bringing out my emotional side! That's my final words before I go to sleep. What about the point of my argument? I forgot...