Ah, finally my internet connection is back on again. It went dead for about two days, that sucked. Hm...about Dex, you know how I said he injured himself? Well the detail of the injury is out now. He fractured one of his spinal discs ( ouch! ) "T14" it was. Yeah, that's really horrible. Good thing he wasn't permenantly paralysed. Happy New Year Everybody! Get well sooner Dex!

I wonder if everyone's life is like dave's. at least mine is, for the past 4 days...mm what should I say? I'm living a life exactly like his (unhealthy too)..I went to bed at 8-9am and got up at 4-5pm, sometimes 7pm. I only saw daylight (and heard birds, too) in the morning which reminds me to go to bed. what keeps me up? shamefully....game. An amazing strategy game, Romance of The Three Kingdoms VIII. it's so addictive! Totally falling into that ancient world, I play more than 8 hrs a day.... ah this is not good...it's so crazy and not good for my getting-fit plan. ah, my new year resolution might be stopping playing game and living a healthy life....... Poor dex...I lost contact with him and dave since that gatherinig.(because of the reason above) ... All the best, get well please. PS: dave I still like that girl4 pic.

Ah, finished recoding the site, finally... Now I have more time to work on my "art". Actually, they are just bad sketches of girls to satisfy my adolescent erotic fantasies. ( Can I say 'erotic' here? Hell yeah! It's my blog! ) *ahem* anyways. I'm not used to daylight anymore. I just saw some birds fly by my window, imagine that, birds! My schedule for the past few days was very screwed up. I would sleep at 8:00am, then wake up at 5:00pm. I didn't see day light for the past three days already. Not healthy at all, that's gotta change. ChangPing invited Dex and I to go and watch a movie today. She said she'll call Rachel too. However it seems Dex can't go. It seemed that he injured himself rather badly while skiing yesterday. Now he's lying in bed unable to move. It isn't life threatening though. And no, he didn't break any bones, which is good news. Get well soon Dex.

My days are getting more and more loney, everyone is busy with things to do or people to meet, yet for me there aren't a thing. No one to talk to, no one to see, and no one on MSN, nothing interesting, nothing exciting, and nothing fun.... This always happen around Christmas, I am starting to hate Christmas, because I am not even able to play my favorite music. 555555..... :'(

I agreed this isn't a big deal. I wasn't disturbed because of a loss of "mian zi", hell I didn't even thought about it until it was brought up. I believe I was disturbed because of a shock to my core values of how friends should interact. It's terribly self-centered and stupid of me to judge others by my own standards. Well, I'm no saint, and I can be pretty egoestical sometimes. I don't think I'm enraged, just feeling disturbed. Gimme some time, it should disappear.

Oh yeah..I guess somebody is extremely not happy about that dinner. I thought everything was OK when we played in UC��but I guess I have to say something after seeing the harsh words downstairs. First, yes, we are poor. We don't have an income, and our parents are new immigrants who are not wealthy. If we were considered as friends of somebody, would he let us spend much money on something which is not worth that much? Right, I know the theory about "friendship" and "loyalty". And I know somebody wants to help that poor business because his family are friends of its owners. Aside from how irrational the price is and the reason this business is not running well, it's true that if he walked out of the restaurant, it'd be horrible and terribly disrespectful FOR HIM. But does this help have to come from us? I mean his friends will not necessarily be our friends. They are just strangers in some sense. Why would we stay? For example, would you give some big money to a stranger (not homeless ppl) on the street? Plus, if you really want to help them DEEPLY from you heart, why don't you eat there everyday? Why don't you work there full-time for free? In a word, the reason that somebody is pissed off and embarrassed is just that we didn't give him "mian zi". There's no such word in English. I don't want to say something like, hey this is Canada, we should do things as what Canadians do, and I still truly appreciate the Chinese tradition that friendship is important. I just don't think the situation downstairs has anything to do with the nice tradition. And it's not relevant to our core value either. Yes somebody and us are friends and I treasure this friendship, but this doesn't mean somebody has the right to order us to do whatever IN HIS SITUATION is right. We do things because we have our reasons. Sigh~ "mian zi" is rather important in Chinese culture (although I think it's bad and foolish). Fine, let's say we were supposed to give him "mian zi". Well we could have. We asked him to tell the boss that it's us, these "horrible and terribly disrespectful" friends, wanted to leave, but not him, so he'd have no reason to feel embarrassed. He could have promised the boss that he would bring some richer friends next time. If somebody is mad and even thinks of ending the friendship with us just because he felt he had lost his "mian zi" without trying to make things perfect, I'm sorry for him and I can say "sorry" to him too because of sympathy. Ohh I have said enough. Still, I don't think this thing is a big deal. I don't wanna argue any more, and I still consider everybody as my friend. WOW it's Dec 25th now! MERRY CHRISTMAS~~~~:D got any nice presents? ;)

I was put into a rather difficult bind yesterday during the dinner. Some people wanted to leave because of the price of the food. Which in my opinion isn't all THAT much compare to similar restaurants. That wasn't the problem though. The problem was that the store was owned by a family that is very close to me. They only started running the business half a year ago, and aren't making very much money. I havn't done anything to support their business up till then, hence I felt rather guilty about it. Even Dex went and supported them by eating there when they just opened up. I understand how some people didn't want to spend money. After all, almost none of us have jobs or any kind of income. I offered to pay for them, but they still refused. It's the holidays, and I was among friends, plus I was in the restaurant of close friend as well. In such a situation, I don't mind spending money, even when I'm poor. Friendship outweights monetary things any day. Khai understood that imidiately, the value of respect and loyalty are more well understood by kungfu guys I suppose. I know the others had good intentions, but it's just such a shock to me that our core values are so different. Once again, I DON'T CARE about spending more money there, I simply must support them. There were no way I would walk out on them. Such an act would be horrible and terribly disrepectful. I was deeply disturbed, I even questioned if I really want to associate myself with such people. I'm still very disturbed by it. I understand that I writing this out would definitly offend people. But if I don't get it out of my chest, I'm afraid I would eventually drift away from them. Friendship is partially about communication, and here I'm letting people know how my feelings. You did a good job yesterday Dex, don't worry too much about it.

It was so tiring yesterday, but it was fun for the most parts. It wasn't really my party, I organized it because my friends from Western tech high had this gathering last year at this time, also because since I was very greatful for Sam invided me to his little party last year, so I promissed Sam that I'll through a party too, he might of forgot but I don't easily forget a promiss. (unless extrem circomstance) On top of that since Racheal is going to be loney during this holyday, I though I should invide her, but to make things more exciting I asked Jane and Crystal to came, so Racheal won't be so loney. But most of all, I really really missed Kat, I wanted us to be together, but I think I am rushing it a bit too much. It's been a little more than three years since I met her. Thoes are the reasons why I organized this party, so after reading it Dav should have a better understanding of why I chosed it. Yes I was quite selfish I guess, because when Kat left, I totally lost my interest in everything. So the not so big group shattered all together. But thatnks to Jane and Crystal's self interest, I was able to get back to my senses. Also thanks Dav for been my best buddy and stayed with us. The four of us and Sam and David Wu went to play ping pong and pool instead of going to the movie. Now I feel I need to say sorry to the two people (Khai and Sida) that we didn't goto the movie together, but that might be the best for now, at least thoes two can be alone with each other, and Khai have the perfect excuss to be with Sida watching the movie. So after Kat left we went to University Collge and spend the night from 8:00pm to 2:00am. Where I finely repolished my skills on PingPong, Woohoo that was nice, now I wanted to play more sports like Ping Pong, and Badminten, and Workout, and Stuff. But the highlight of my whole day was the dinner, I don't need to explain that part, so for now, let it remain a wonderful memery for me, such that I know the five people present will keep ot a secret for now. I sure wished I could made that day better. Because I know I could. p.s. to Dav (The reason why D2 is good is not because of the skill tree and stuff, it is because of the fun in treasure hunt, finding cool items, unique weapons, armors, etc... That's why it is attractive, and only on Battle Net)

A lot have happened, but I felt no urge to write them down for some reason. Went to the CUA dinner two days ago. It was alright. A lot of people showed up, more than half are those who I've never seen before. No, there were no cute girls -__- . The girls there were alright, but none that really captured my attention. Had a good time talking and joking around with friends I guess. I then went to a web bar and played Diablo II (sic) with Jane and Dex. I seriously don't know why Dex likes the game so much, or why anyone still like a game that's 3 years old and is obsolete both in terms of gameplay and technology. In my old computer graphics teacher Mr. West's words: These are just itty bitty bitmaps running around the screen with mouse clicks. I don't deny that the game have it's fun factor for the first 2 hours. However, why it has such a longitivity is beyond me. No, don't even get started with all that tech-trees and skill levels crap with me. I went to watch The Two Towers with my highschool buddies. Gopy, Eva (Su), Jennifer, Momo, Justin, Noeman and Alan were there. The movie was great, I liked it. What got me thinking was the fact that after only four months apart, we had a hard time conversing to each other. Why is that? Have each one of us changed so much in only four months that we can find nothing in common? Aside from Jennifer's longer hair, I could find no major change in any one of us. Granted, none of us are the terribly extrovert and impulsive types. Still, what happened to the days when we could sit in front of the school library and talk to the day's end? On a brighter note, I found out that I could buy all volumns of the original Japanese Saikano manga at Kikiwai -- a manga store in chinatown. I bought the first three volumns already, 4 more to go.

Omega (Oh My God) ... as I am reading through a book, a book for my Humanity class which I must perform an lecture on has just stund me. This book is called "The Investigator," and the day that my first university lecture take place is very near my birhtday, and in this book on this page, it speaks "There are 119 children aged between 13-17 murdered on Feb 23rd 1943". This day is my birthday, and exactly 60 years ago, this incedence has occured. and on this upcomming Feb 23rd (60 years after 1943) I am suppose to talk about it in my lecture, on my birthday. !!! p.s. They were all killed together by Phenol incertion to the heart, in human experimentation lab. (Horrable) I wonder what kind� sign does it hold...

hi, long time no talk la guys! i'm sure everybody is enjoying their winter holiday now, right? hope you all have some unforgotable moments happened in this christmas^^(like jane~)i'm sure she is smiling even in her dream~ right jane?^v* i myself is having a wonderful holiday, totally relaxing , sat back , and eventful!! it's so free and stressfulless. a life by oneself is indeed desirable, i have never live by myself before. i can tell the fun i have missed if i have being living in school in high school. ( as people described) there is not much too worry about, no more parents constant reminding and frequent controlling. here i am an grown-up, if i can call myself so. i can use my time freely, although it's still not very efficient, but it's controlled by MY will. what more can one expect? lots fun: karaoke~~ for 3 hours with a bunch of higher years, two guys sings indeed good, oh, boy, sounds just like the original singer; pacific mall~~, i waste lots of loonies on dancing machine, not very good at it though, i can only dance the light level.it's so cool to dance fast ones, i 'll try to practice if i can borrow a dance carpet from jimmy; eating ~~Top Three Foods count down!!-->korean food NO.3, japanese food NO.2, chinese food NO.1, what can i say, toronto is great! and what's more? sleeeeeeeeeeeep, it's the thing that one never gets enough, expecially for ppl like me ! hehe.....sleep, eat, sleep, eat...what's that sounds like? ......how do i suppost to know? who cares,hehe, as long as you go to do sports!! but somehow, it doesn't work smoothly, resolution failed again...signing again, put the blame on comfy chair and bed....i need to sleep badly now...where is my bed.....i'm turning dizzy...i can hardly type..i can't believe i only woke up 5 hours ago! gees~ps:i will go to dex's party tomorrow, what's the website again? i'm not clear when and where do we meet!! plz draw a line dex!~

After a three chapters of Tokio Love Story, the cd don't work anymore, Doh. Anyways, that's not the point. After what I watched, I start recall my life, truthfully I guess I should say I liked (according to the movie defenition) many girls, as many as more than 40, but it was only until one month after I met Kat did I stop... Arggg, Damn Dex. Oh well, I liked the movie... hehe And thank you Dav and Jane for been there with me playing Diablo2exp. It really is a great game, we should play it more often. :p (but not as late next time hopefully)

Nobody is posting? Even Dave is tooo lazy to write?? Jeez.....Anyways, yeah, life is pretty good. I'm done all my exams(well..only one...) -_-'......and I have enjoyed my holidays VERY MUCH. mmm what did I do? I slept a lot, which is the most important thing (I got up at 4pm or something :P). I watched anime (thanks to dave), hung out with my friends at rez (I just found out how amazing they are), ate out many times (my wallet...:'(.. ), and enjoyed my SINGLE room(my roommate left long time ago)... Can you believe I still went to library to read after my exam? :) I just LOVE Trinity Library...the oven...the comfy couch...the wooden table....aaahh it's just a perfect place to read and relax!! :D Oh yeah, Pacific Mall...ppl said going there is part of being asain :) I liked that place....I so felt like going home. hehe. After that, I started to hang out with ppl from UC a lot..pool..pingpang...it's been REALLY fun....:) And... shopping with him *cough* became a highlight of my nice vacation in toronto..:P we were together just for 3-4 hrs, but I did enjoy a lot...mmm gotta have two weeks without seeing him....T.T. sigh~~still, it will be a close-ended story. oh well. don't want to think any more. Yeah life is good. I love my friends. I love UofT. I love Toronto.

Ever have that urge to get up and start yelling "MEN!" on the top of your lungs while pretending to be cutting a men suburi in the middle of the night? ( "men" is kendo term for mask/face, think a wack to the head ). Well I just had that urge... I think I'm turning psycho :D As usual, Judo was great fun for the whole family. Ok, maybe not the WHOLE family per say. There are plenty of injuries that can occur in Judo. Like today, I accidentally reinjured one of my sensei's knee while trying to do osoto-gari. Then I kinda caused this other guy to pull his muscle on this upper right leg while trying to counter his ippon seoinage. Yeah, it wasn't pretty, I felt like a walking black-curse or something. Before that, I cliped his chin with my elbow while practicing a throw ( I didn't do it on purpose, I swear!). Then he pulled his back by some other guy, and then got kicked in the balls....I guess we all have our bad days, I mean I injured my right foot 2 times already. Still, I feel kinda bad for that guy. I remember Eva commenting how she thinks Chinese martial art causes permenant damage to the body. I have to disagreed. It's been over three years since I started kungfu, and the worst injury I've had was a bloodied nose and a punch in the eye ( and messed up hands....but that's not the point ). So far I've more seriously injured myself in Judo than I ever have (except for that one time when I broke both of my arms, and that other time when I broke my right arm...again ). Yeah, so I can see my life-long injury already -- the stupid right foot. Oh, officially got my yellow belt today, that was cool. Very awsome practice today, randori was excellent ( aside from the um....injuries I caused )

Haha this is so funny.. too bad I can't understand the language ... :( http://www.gamedesigner.net/news.phtml?id=41

YAAAAAAAY!!! I'M DONE!!! so happy :D well...i only had one exam..so there's nothing much to say; but this CS exam was pretty..um...easy? (compared to past years) :P I did alright...hope I can get a good mark....but the most important thing is, I'm free too!! wuahahaha~~ whoa, it's so "late" now....heeheee....I treated myself TWO movies "last night"...Harry Potter and Die Another Day...sooo good :D Now one of my wishes has come true! :D

Went to the intermediate Judo practice today. It was so much fun. The head sensei is a 30ish Japanese guy of my height ( which is pretty short ). He's definitly skilled. I tried to work primarily on my ippon serinage. I think my technique have improved tremendously. The sensei was incredibly helpful in correcting my posture. I did ne waza with him and was chocked out twice. Ah....so much to learn.......

Whooot! My exam is finished, I'm free! Free I tell you! Wow, sweet sweet free time, what shall I do with you? *huges and kisses free time* worked more on the new site. Ah, so free! So nice! So expressionless! I have absolutely nothing better to say. Free time.......WOW.....

Um..haven't been here for a while....everything seems fine ..:) My first and last exam is tomorrow, and I'm so tired now. And....my roommate left to vancouver. I'm totally free now! hahahaha~~~:D welcome everybody!! :P

Last practice of Kendo for this term. I finally am able to put on the bogus ( the cool looking armors ), and got wacked over the head over and over again by the sempais :) Charles showed no mercy to the beginners, and beat us senseless. Haha, it was great. Went to eat with the sempais and the guys there after practice. It was lots of fun, Tony sensei told us a lot of funny stories. He started to practice about a month after I was born (!). Yeah, I'm reminded once again why I love martial arts so much. The hard work, the sweat, the mental concentration, the bond between practitioners...... You know what they say, Bu Da Bu Xiang Shi. Other than my childhood friends, some the closest friend I have are those who I have beat senseless in practice and vice versa.

Title : Grandfather�s retention In the darkest night, in the saddest sight, under the silver moon light, upon the lonely hill, there awaits master�s treasure, unforgettable treasure to be discover, many pass and go for centuries, yet only the unintentional ones gets a glance, for they�ve been troubling the unmatched tools, even though the right key is within their reach, the key might be a painful one, and the lock might be an ancient one, the experience might be unpleasant, the answer might be worthless, but under the right moment, using the right key, opening the right lock, answering the right riddle, will open a world so colorful and so wonderful, and so delightful, such that one will never again forget the treasure�s power, such that one will never again underestimate the treasure�s worth, and never again be sad. (Oh boy I haven't wrote a good poem for a long time now.) (I like this one, I just hope it not too simple, nor too deep for others to understand)

I'm exausted... Maybe I did get soft, seeing a simple night of judo practice drained so much energy out of me. I rarely even break a sweat before. Or...it maybe the beer that's floating around in my brain. The last of the beginner Judo classes ended today. I passed the ridiculously easy grading and am now a yellow belt. After been thrown like a toy during the grading ( to test our ukemi supposdly ), I proceeded to do three consecutive randori. It was fun as hell, tiring too. Since this was the last class of the term, a whole bunch of us headed down to O'Grady's for beer and chatted for a bit. It was great fun, Sabrina got pretty drunk after 2 shots and 4 cups of some sort of alcohol, and started laughing at how young I look -_-; So yeah, I'm really tired and sleepy right now. I plan to go to the intermediate classes next week, they are free until the begining of the next semester anyways, and I need to get back in shape. ... <-- my comment on Dex's poem ( see, no actual comment :P )

Title : Crazy D-er Mister Dexter is a master gangster who like his sister to become an inventor. He has a hamster under a quatre of a metre, name Baxter that lives in a twister, that way it is faster when racing against an blister. Others like Rooster, Lobster, and Oyster, are all envy of that buster. Here come the bunny from Easter, who is a game tester, her love for sweets are even sweeter, so is going to see who's fatter when comparing with Baxter. But Mr.Dexter stopped the disaster... (Stupid but cool) DON'T ANYONE DARE TO COMMENT ON THIS. other than me.

Title : Cocal swinging by the wind, dancing in the rain, under the moon light is the spot, above the lake is the slot, the inner warmth protects the soul, the inner strength protects the love, far away the sense still attach, far away the mind still fresh, floating in the air, freeing of care, what a dream...

Finaly I finished 4 Journals, Computer Assignment, Computer Quiz, Reading the humanity book, Statistic Assignment, Math Assignment, and Eco Assignment, all in 7 days jee, so much.. one thing left for this week, and that's the BIG ECO TEST.. Doh! going study after I finishes my poem.

Finally, Sociology test is over I went crazy and didn't sleep for over 30 hours. Needless to say, I slept like a baby yesterday night. Somehow, my program for Computer Science works. I have no idea how, I always thought there's a method or two that still need debugging. However, the program worked like a charm when I opened it today. Weird... I'm really sinking farther and farther into a craze for Saishu Heiki Kanojo. Christ, I think I'm becoming on of those fanboys. The serie is just so good! Maybe even better than Tokoyo Love Story ( Jane and Crystal: shock, gasp in horror )

Title : TeleSycH Under the harsh weather, I wonder...where art thou? I wonder... how art thou? My inner individual is so lonely with thy absence, My inner individual is so longing with thy image. The world holds no meaning when thou art gone, The world become colorful when thou art abreast. But when thou are needed, thou art nowhere, But when thou are forgotten, thou appear. In the berserk world, when do I see thou?

I might post some stupid stupid poems, sorry, because as you see poem can not be forced out of one's head, it can only emerge when itself is ready....(no one is forcing me but I just right some crazily bad poems here because, hm...) jee too much dumb poem, I can't even talk straight.!!!

Title : Brain Motion Graph the mind, of one mere kind, it would be a bind, of liquid and sand, When does it clears? No one knows... When does it drys? No one knows... How did it form? No one knows... How did it doom? No one knows... Only the feeling can speak of the treachery, Only the heart can purify the disgrace, Only the time can heal the wound.

Dear Jane : I am sorry that I couldn�t help you today in BA, I shouldn�t even bother making you come, I guess why I wished you to come with us is so that the place would not be too quite and empty. Tell you the truth at that time I so wanted to help you, but as you know a man should always keep their words, I have promised Connie that I will help, then I can�t just run off helping someone else, if you where the person that I promised to help, then what would you think if I ran off? To think about myself, I sometimes hated me, each project should be done by the assigned person, if one can�t do it, then one should ask for help from the appointed helper (TA), why do I always hang around? I don�t know, but what I do know is I shouldn�t. Only if the world has less people like me, it might be a more ordered and better place. Plus what a �show off�I am right? That�s something I wish I could change, if only you would know my childhood, where no one ever viewed me as a person of any knowledge. I am a sad sad person, I don�t know why when ever you get angry around me, I just go into a deep deep depression for unknown reason, that was what happened last time. Perhaps it was guilt... Anyways, you are a good friend of mine, just like David, only to a lesser extends, remember back on the day right before Thanksgiving? When you told me that you like to point out other people�s problems for that can help improve them? Well, I from friend�s point of view would tell you that you shouldn�t get angry too often, you are a sweet girl, but only if you can control your temper, you�ll be much better. Maybe at this time you won�t listen to me about the above point, and plus you don�t have to, but trust me it�ll be good for you, once again, I am not trying to act like a elderly, plus I never have, I only tell you because I am a friend. Your friend : Dex

Two new anime series I'm getting addicted on Tokyo Underground and Saishu Heiki Kanojo ( Ultimate(Final) Weapon Girlfriend ) Both have amazing animation quality and music, and both originated from manga. Tokyo Underground was drawn by Uraku Akinobu. Saishu Heiki Kanojo was drawn by Shin Takashi. I don't have the fortune of reading either in manga form yet. Well, I did read Saishu a bit, the first 3 chapters anyways. Take note Dex, if you want some quality animes for the Anime club, these should be it. And yeah, Vandread is awsome too...

Title : Burn DeEnergy Burn Under the hast, when death can not stand, when life can not fall, when stars are beneath, when the dirt are above, time never stop, time never start, days never end, days never begin. The view is red, the thought is dark, the smell is deciving, the eyes are burning. The DEXEN DACKELL.

Evangelion is crazy Just watched the "End of Evangelion". God it's so confusing and strange. No, the word strange doesn't even describe it. It's so freaky and disturbing. The second half makes no sense. People just started turning into orange liquids for no reason, and Shinji did absolutely nothing. What a useless character, did I mention I hate his voice acting as well? Truely the most pathetic excuse for a male protagonist ever. It's just so bad, even if the big mech( is that even a mech? I mean it's organic ) battle is cool. The animation was great too, but still, so strange and...bad. Actually, this film is so bad it's hilarious. The plot makes no sense, and became way too artsy in the second half. Yeah, it's late, and I'm tired.

Title : Enough with the multiarrowing... Deteriorate my degenerated arrows, reanimate the torn goal. Clenches onto the surrounding, and inhale brand-new breath. Concentrate the veiled air, form the unique missile. Such that it will penetrate the silence, and gather the wind for multiple strength. I shall let instinct guilds my luck, and wish my reborn chance a wonderful success.

Um......dave is desperate to ask ppl to write here....so....I think i'd better "peng chang", hehe~~mmm what's new? I'm so into CUA's events now....ppl there are very nice, hehe, I feel way more comfortable with them than with canadians. of course....they remind me of my past life so much! and the same language!! same background!! dave doesn't give it a !@#$ eh? i think you enjoyed the movies tonight:) anyways....things are going fine now i guess...everybody is stressed out by those tests, assignments and exams (expect dave) ;) I have A4 to do...and HUM assignment, and one more HUM test...damn....i have to do better this time!! :( Um some weird things have been bothering me lately...but I think I can handle them :) or just forget about them... good night ppl!

Ah haha, the CUA pub night's photos are up on their website here's a photo of me right after I threw a dart, you can clearly see the state my finger was in. And yet I went anyways, what the hell was I thinking? *cough* yeah, Chrystal was right, there were some cute girls there *cough*

I had a very weird dream yesterday.... The details are becoming very fuzzy now, I was in some kind of tournament, sort of a contest between groups. There were different groups, and each of us would pick an event from a pile of cards. The part I remembered was that the tournament have been going on for some time, and a lot of people were dead. My group consisted of this girl, and this kid who was my elementry school friend when I just came to Canada. I can't remember the girl's face even if my life depended on it. I've never seen her before, but she felt very familiar, as if I've known her for a long time. What I do remember was that I love her, seriously, I did. I've never ever felt something like that my whole life, but I do know for sure I love her. The feeling in fact persisted for a long time even after I woke up. We were in the middle of selection our next event, and we were free to exchange team members. One of my old team member died or something ( He's just not there, and I was sad about it ), and I was thinking about who to replace him. Then my friend popped up and offer to join our team. He's a short guy, weak too. But I decided to let him in anyways for old time's sake. He suggested we exchange the girl for someone stronger, since she was a bit weak as well. I flatly refused it, simply cause I was worried about her safety. What happened was that I picked an event, and this old lady (?) told me that it's a very difficult maze, and we should stick together as tightly as possible. I asked what this other choice I almost picked up was, and she said it's a choice that asks me to pick which one of my team have to die to reach the next level (!) I felt so lucky since I clearly couldn't decide who would die. I then pondered the question, and the strongest possibility was to kill myself cause I can't possibly kill the girl or let my friend die. Then we were readying to go into the maze. I think there are monsters in the maze. I mean big scary ones that are huge, the kind I would be intimidated by ( or anyone else ). So yeah, I pulled out my sword / spear ( can't remember what it was, something really sharp. ) and was going to go into the maze, then I woke up. ...What lingered after was, like I said, my clear feeling for the girl. Hell, I was a bit sad that I probably won't ever see her again. I seriously loved her, while I was in my dream anyways. I'm not the kind of person to use the word "love" lightly, but it was the only description I can find. It was very strange, but it felt good in a way. Kind of sad, but glad that I did feel that in the same time. Why did I write this here? I dunno, I just didn't want to forget this dream and this feeling a few days from now. I don't keep a paper journal, so.... ............ yeah, that's basically it...

Ahh.... finally the Cha-cha & Jive dance class is over. 10 classes(of which I skipped 3). umm I think I did learn something and had some great time there. Basically I liked this class...it's a good work out, plus I enjoyed the atmosphere(you know...everyone was dumb, so you didn't need to worry about how dumb YOU were). I met and danced with different ppl there...and had a crush on our instructor....;) I'm kidding, but he's such a nice guy :) he's funny and I love looking at him dancing!! lol...anyways, it's over, and it's remarkable that I took this class. sigh~~everytime I finish something, such as a movie, or a book, or high school, I feel sentimental......

Once upon a time ( let's say, oh....last year ), I did a lion dance performance in a nightclub called "This is London". I was only 17, on the verge of turning 18 then. The performance was supposed to be at 11:30pm, however, it was pushed back and we actually did the performance at 1:00 am and 2:30 am. The problem was that many of us were underaged and wasn't dressed properly. ( How can we? We need to do lion dance! ) So the manager thought it would be funny ( at least that's what I'm telling myself ) to stick us in a horrondously pink washroom with her cat for 4 hours. Why did I mention this stupid incident? Cause I was back at that place on Saturday, this time doing a kungfu performance. Oh how I loath that nightclub. I injured my hands pretty badly this time. What happened was that I was supposed to slide down a rope from the second floor, jump into a mock fight between Khai and Jay, and then "fight" Jay with Butterfly knives then get beaten. Sounds simple right? It was actually. However, I bruised the index finger of my left hand as I was falling down in one of the rehearsals at the place. The finger got caught in the knive's handle....anyways, it hurt. In a later practice, because I couldn't hold onto the rope tight enough with my left hand, I had to hold it tighter with my right. When I slided down, the rope burned off a layer of skin in my hand. ( yeah, that hurt too ). I still did the performance with bandages on both of my hands. I guess I was too nervous and scared from the height ( it was really high ), so I didn't care much about the pain at the time. Yeah, we still had to stay in that god-awful pink washroom ( @#$%# ), at least the cat isn't there this time. I swear, if I ever see that cat again, I WILL kill it. Don't take it the wrong way, I love cats, I like them better than dogs, but still, I WILL kill that cat if I ever see it again. There was supposed to be a lion dance at 1 am, but me and Khai excused ourselves and hurried outta there as fast as possible. Now I have both of my hands injured and my right foot not completely recovered.... My left index finger was swollen like a carrot, and turned green and blue ( it's it fun? ) Don't think I'll go to kungfu for a while, I'm all "kungfu"ed out this week. I really really loath that club...

I skipped another semiotics lecture(9am) since I couldn't get up at all. Last night was definitely fun, I met so many ppl and talked a lot (which leads to my lost of voice now :P). But my next-door was toooo loud last night(damn....2 couples were "fighting" for fun, how could you expect them to be quiet?!) so I didn't fall asleep until 3 or something. I'm so lack of sleep this weekend.....stefan's birthday party was really fun, I met some guys and had a great time and stayed over(but didn't get enough sleep). haha. I felt I was such a bad girl...:P anyways, have to go to class now...the internet in my room is down, so I'm in the lab of BA.....;)

David, come to the pub nite, you know where is it right? it starts at 6 pm. everybody you know will be there ,second floor. i'm inviting you sincerely. p.s. there are lots of cute girls too^^ i never lie to you right??^^hehe

Um...it's getting barren here... Anyways, I'm soo tired of doing A4...I remember the days doing A2 and A3...same stressful as right now...these assignments are so tiring!! I don't have weekends before their due date; I have to stare at the screen for more than 5 hrs straight; I have to think hard until my brain is exhausted. If this is the life of CS....should I keep going this direction?? hmm...although somehow I can find some fun through the programming process, I'm sick of it right now. Gotta take a break, and eat, and take a shower, and go to Stefan's birthday(which was yesterday) party :D Yesterday was pretty fun, I phoned him at 0:00am to say happy birthday...and hung out with him for a while in the afternoon:) (my perfect celebration plan was ruined accidentally, but we still had fun) sigh~~birthday.....we are getting older and older...yo crystal, what does that sentence say? Treasure the life as if heaven is on earth? :)

Had a kungfu demo on Friday. Khai and Sida asked me to perform in their Asian Culture show a while back, and yesterday was the big day. I agreed to it of course, but didn't foresee that my foot would be in bad condition. ( Oh, the injury worsened after um....Kendo and Judo ). It was great fun I guess, aside from the fact that my foot was hurting from the lack of blood supply. I think I bandaged it too tightly. Anyways, I did my GongLiQuan form, slowly. Apperantly it looked good and everyone liked it. I hanged around with Khai during the day when there was nothing to do. We walked around UT, went to a Japanese restaurant and had sushi and sake. It was great. Crystal is trying to get me to go to this pub night for CUS. I dunno if I really want to go, with all the stupidness going on with Dex and this group. Anyways, I still have another demo tonight. P.S Dex, could you please STOP deleting your own posts? It's getting out of hand!

hi, David, have you join the CUA yet? Chinese Undergrad Assoiation. go to the main website of it, it's great." cua.sa.utoronto.ca" and email them to join, and there will be a pub nite in this coming Sat. everybody is going. see you there~! Jane says it's faster for you to see the message here then on MSN , so i figure i will leave the message here. ^^ and Tokoy Love Story is soooooooo attractive. i only finished the first episode. lixiang is such a lovely and passionate and positive little woman. i'm so envous of her. there is something about her that keeps my attention to this show. wish everybody will find their real love!^^

The Chinese girl next door (who has/had a boyfriend in Vancouver) is sleeping with a guy from upstairs again. They're not even going out now...they have been "together" for less than a week..(I don't even consider they are together) cool...maybe I shouldn't be too surprised; this is Canada, not my relatively conserved small world any more...

Phew, I finished watching all 11 episodes of Tokyo Love Story in two days. I know it's almost 10 years old ( or is it older? ), but classic is classic, gotta watch it. I throughly enjoyed the show, it's great. Great practice for my Japanese skill too. Kendo was good today, got yelled at a lot, but that's expected.

hi everybody. Had a enjoyable weekend everyone, hopefully? I myself went back home in Hamilton, and i had a quiet pleasent time there with my parents and uncle, who just came from vancouver to seek job opportunities. One good thing about going home is you can eat really really good food. hmmm~~ i suspect i already gained weight just for the one and a half day eating at home. It makes me feel ok after I convined myself that I will do more exercise in school everyday. yes, my resolution, going to Hart House every morning to work out for at least half and hour. This plan goes quite well, in spite of the fact that i'm not going there every single day. But that's ok, as long as i keep it going, right? Alright, it's late now, and i want to make a wish, that is do bless me in my coming commerce test, i will work hard on it and i want to get a reasonably good result this time!>_< V~~

Another day has gone..and I'm all alone.....oh man this actually reminds me of Michael Jackson...god did you see his face? His nose is actually falling down...jeez can't imagine that again....:P anyways, it's snowing now!! how great it is!! hehe..I've seen a lot of snow before, but I'm still deep in love with it! snow.....snow.......(obsessed) Yesterday(technically the day before yesterday) I went back to Hamilton (home sweet home) and spent some great time with my dearest dad..he's the best and coolest dad ever! (Dex and Dave can prove this) He's playing CIVIII now...and I enjoyed watching him playing...hehe...it's a great game! how pity i have no time to play it! :( And I came back tonight JUST for my floor's event--bowling. Damn they changed the plan in the last minute, and we went to play pool instead. My pratise from UC actually helped me, plus I had incredible luck today...So i won 5 of 7 games....:D I don't always feel entirely comfortable with the ppl from my floor, but i had a lot of fun today indeed. And Tokyo Love Story is good! isn't it? (some ppl: nod, nod) Oh god it's so late now....I can't even keep my eyes open...good night world...

It's snowing... It really isn't much of a suprise considering how cold it was yesterday. Now, I'll have no excuse to delay buying a pair of shoes any further. The shoes I have now are in pretty bad shape, since I abuse them so much. Maybe tomorrow or monday I guess. My foot is healing up nicely. The lump is gone now, and the purpleness have turned red. I can move the foot much more before I feel pain. I should be in good shape on Monday, when there's a Kendo class.

Dave~~I always believe life is like a sine curve...sometimes you are at the trough, sometimes you are at the top. it's always changing... I'm really sorry to hear what had happened to u, but you know, everything will be fine....you'll see eva again; your feet will get better; you'll learn randori eventually cuz you are smart and it's easy for u to catch up. Cheer up! :D Smile....tomorrow's gonna be a new day! PS: yeah...I remember to bring Tokyo Love Story now......

Well, remember I said Judo's gonna kill me? It sort of did. Well, I'm not dead per say, but I horribily twistic my foot. How? In the most pathetic manner possible --- I stepped on it wrong. I suppose normally with shoes on, such a step wouldn't be harmful. I was bare-footed though, so it hyper-extended my foot muscle around the outer ankle joint on my right foot. I was going to keep going without telling people about it, but then a big purple shiny lump appeared after a while followed by intense pain. I decided to tell the sensei about it and sat the rest the of the class out with ice over the lump. ...And then, they did randori. Why! oh Why must they begin to do randori in the class when I happened to be injured?? Maybe this's god's way of preventing me of doing it. I mean I had plenty of little hints of not to go to Judo. The cold; then I saw Eva right before judo, when I was handing in my math; Now I have this injured foot? Maybe I shouldn't do randori today? Who knows, I might be too weak today to perform a break-fall correctly, and break my neck in the process? Maybe this's a good thing? the injury I mean. Yup, that's what I'm telling myself: The nasty painful giant purple lump that's stabbing at your heart and agonizing every fibre of your being is on your side David! Yup, it's good for you!

ahh....I feel like shit right now.... I felt terrible yesterday, apperantly I've got a cold, so I was dizzy and my throat hurts like hell. Plus I didn't sleep much yesterday, and I was hungry....so yeah, yesterday was bad. I thought I would feel better today be taking some medicine and get a good night's sleep. ...well, my parents neglicted to tell me that Tylenol Cold makes you feel weak. That's exactly what I feel now, very very weak. I have problem standing up stright, and my head is even dizzier. Although the throat stopped hurting.... Ah geez, math assignment is due today. I havn't finished it, well screw it. I can drop 2 of my worst assignments anyways. But still, goddamn it, I should get perfect on this one, it's so easy. Ah, gotta gather up some strength go to go school and hand in what I've already done. I'll go to Judo today, I never skip any training sessions. If only I have the same determination when it comes to study... * oh god, I almost collapsed when I reached down to get some food form the fridge......Judo is gonna kill me today....

Finished my 11-page math assignment #7. Watched the movie "8 Mile" by Eminem which is known as the top 1 from last weekend. Experienced the extreme feeling when the motorbike's speed was over 70 on Toronto's street at night. Got to know 4 more friends (who are girls). My MD player can contain more than 50 songs. Found the National Anthem of China in my collection of mp3s. ......Life could be so much FUN! :)

Argh, you can see it's 5:34 AM. Goddamn computer science assignment screw this, I'm going to sleep

I am in New college's so-called student council... and stefan is the coolest!!.....yeah..he wrote that :D hm...i like this keyboard!! oh well.,..i was late again for math class, cuz i couldn't get up since i only slept for 6 hours......and I'm desperate to find somewhere to sleep......oh dave, how smart you are knowing it's not necessary to go to math lecture...but you can really understand things well IF YOU DON'T TAKE NOTES......anyways, dav GET UP! lol...... I'm going to play some piano later...seeee i do have a life!! :D

Ah, was reading H2 again when I was supposed to be doing my compsci assignmnet but... qing chun ah, re xue ah, gan dong ah! (can't type Chinese, since some "people" can't read them on their systems -__- )

Funny how I always cook way too much ( enough for two people ), and always end up eating it all? Then why am I getting skinnier!? Could it be that I always slept at 5AM for the past week? ... na....

hey, so many new stuff posted already!! Dav, your website seems like a popular place huh? I really want to make one myself now. after the tests and tiry studies, i will make one ~!! yes, and that will be a new hot spot in the coming future, believe me~~hehe, everyone remember to visit my will-be-made website lol!~ Studying for the marks seems like the only reason for university now, this makes me feel aimless, and depressing. after all, university suppose to be a place of freedom and a place to have fun, isn't it? i doult it now. In my life , it seems like there are mountains after mountains ahead for me to climb, and i can never see the other side of the mountain, i can never tell for certain that my way is the right way. is this the way life suppose to be in university, or life in general? why so streeful and unpleasent for me? maybe i will be fine tomorrow, or maybe for a week, or maybe i will never be happy again... oh, that won't be the case, coz after i wake up tomorrow morning , i will be fresh again, and it's good to be alive after all, think about those people who suffers from deseases, those people who ungergoes great catastrophes, and those who sacrifies their lives just to save other lives...i'm actually in pretty good shape. at least i have people love me and people i love ( hehe..sweet sweet parents and friends). So, temperary stressed out only!! ok, jane's eager to read my post, so i'd better post it and hopefully it pleases her, coz she really is really bored now, hopefully jane wont through tomatoes and eggs on her screen....^^

How I missed that night of commancemence...two of my bestest buddies (Quan and Sergio) was there, and the third (which is Dav) wasn't... Or else it's would be the perfect buddy reunion! Jee, only if Dav have not been spending the time checking out hot chicks (Eva and the other one), instead I strongly agree he should bring them...Anyways, I guess I am known by so many in my school almost 90% of them knows me... even as I passes down the old hall ways, there's always someone calling my name, (which reminded me the song "Just call my name, and I'll be there...")

Jesus....I just remembered that I forgot to go to Dex's commencement This explains why I felt I forgot something after the test on Friday. Christ man, I'm so sorry! Never again shall I place spending time with girls above spending time with friends. *slap self in face over and over again* Oh man...I've become everything that I hated....

Actually I was a little sad when I saw the story that Dave the great story-teller told. That was so interesting, and I love BA so much but i wasn't there!! ...anyways, yeah, good job people, lol~~~~dav your pics are so cool! take more, please, more. Well....it's been a long day and I've got an unbearable headache. yeah..ECO test on monday...I've been bothered by so many tests lately...and I'm a little feelingless now. just bring them on!! lol...... Oh right, I studied in Robart tonight right? and after that I went to Crystal's place....at 0:15 I decided to go home cuz my headache was so terrible, but i was too lazy to walk to the bus stop alone....so i called Walksafer, and they actually sent me two ppl walking with me! a guy and a girl! lol...that guy was good-looking and super nice...he's in Commerce, 3rd year, (hm this sounds a little bit familiar) and that girl was nice and cute....We had fun talking and they waited with me until the bus came ;) hehe..it was so much fun!..so ppl when you don't want to walk alone at night, just call them even though you are not afraid of danger at all. just for fun and meeting new ppl! hehe it's great experience after all. ok....time to sleep....Dav don't forget to write the "getAllLongerThanPreviousTwo"method! ;) and good night......

I met up with LiWenJun today Finally, I can have my mangas back. I missed my H2 :) We havn't seen each other since I lent her my books, which was 4 months ago. We were both busy with life I guess. Now that my tests are over, I can finally find some time to call her up. Took some photos of her, my digital camera is so cool! go see them in the Album

This happened two days ago... So we were studying on the third floor of BA, where the giant glass window (a wall maybe?) was. Dex suddenly said:"uh oh", Crystal's pencil was dangling dangerously on his backpack, over the metal cover of the heater on edges of the floor. The covers were a grid of metal bars, with enough space in them to allow something the size of a pencil to easily drop through them. Once on the other side, it's safe to say that it's nearly impossible to get the pencil back again. Well....Dex proved otherwise. So Dex moved a bit, trying to save the poor pencil from it's doom. It turned out to be counter productive, the pencil suddenly broke free of the backpack, and down it went. "Noo!!!!" Crystal cried, but what's done is done. Dex, feeling guilty, volunteered to save the pencil. I suggested we just get a straw or chopstick, and put gum on one end of it. That way we can get the pencil back easily without property damage. But it won't be such a nice story if there's no property damage now would it? Dex, in his infinit wisedom, decided to crack open the panels like how a man should. He pulled out his trusty key chain, and started to figet with the screws that bolted the panels shut. Then CRAAACK, the panels gave, and we rejoiced as Crystal pulled the pencil to safety. That is, until we heard Dex's cry for help :" Ah...Crap....my key chain is stuck". Some how, the now much reveared keychain is stuck in the little spaces between the grids in the panel. Try as Dex might, it refused to let go of it's lovely embrace with the panel. Not to worry, Kateryna to the rescue! Then um...they got the keychain out, how? I don't know, I didn't quite see it. But believe me they did, I have photos to prove it.

And so, the wave of tests have finally passed, and left a scene of destruction in their wake. Economics test finished today. I can't say how I did, since I felt nothing. The test was long, and there was just way too many question to even give a proper "feel" for it. Nonetheless, I'm glad that its finally over, for now. Now that I can finally breath a sigh of relief, I realized that I'm exhausted. I stayed up all night and slept only at 5AM for the past 4 days. I'm beat. As a little post test celebration of some sort, I went to Dan's home with Eva and Yilun and watched a bloody and depressing Japanese movie and played a bit on Dan's PS2. I'm not depressed now, but I do feel a little lump of sadness in me, with a general feeling that something is missing. Well, I do look forward to the Kendo and Kungfu tomorrow. This reminds me, I gotta call LiWenJun...

One down, one to go Finally finished the calculus test. I suppose I did alright. However, I have no feeling of relief at all. This is probably because I still have an Economics test tomorrow. I got 4 more chapters to read tonight, so better get started.

lol....sorry about my language... oh well, I screwed the last question(10%!!!! T.T)of the test, but the rest are ok....and I'm glad it's done, so let's move on to ECONOMICS!!!!

Fuck!! I can't believe my stuff was lost again!! so i have to type everything again?!?!?! fuck the world......I'm not in a good mood at all, since it's 1.5 hours away from the freaking stupid test!!! and yeah I'm stressed out... My goddamned don is chatting with my roommate, and it seems they don't know my existence!! what the hell......yeah I was supposed to study more but after the relaxing hum lecture, I was stopped by some random guy who suggested me to go to a seminar about time management and how to deal with stress. jeez i wonder how he knew I was stressed out.and yeah, someone was there too...very glad to see him...hope he didn't think i went there just for him because that's not the full reason (maybe 50% is... ;))anyways, so i went there and wasted another hour plus my heart speed wasn't normal from the beginning to the end. That's all. I can't believe I'm so nervous before this test since I am supposed to be fully prepared. just nervous and feel helpless. oh well.....I think I'll do fine!! hopefully!!! good luck to all the ppl who are on the 3rd floor of BA!!! PS: since many ppl are writing here, it seems impossible to avoid we talking with each other. right?

Whaaaat! You went swimming without telling me? ::Evil administrator David speaks: People, can we please keep this blog more like a blog, and not like a forum?

man I better go to sleep, so TIRED...can't keep my eyes open... see you guys in MAT lecture later on today (in the morning)... better be there guys... and specially "Dav the skipper" I'll be WATTING.!!! Arggggg!

Thanks Crystal... and woohoo.. me went swimming today... in the big pool.. NICE...^_^ Doh, Calculas test tomorro....oh well.. I am ready... BRING IT ON....!!! HAHAHA

hey people, today is really a long day for me. oh, damn, the people downstairs are singing so loud with their gitar the whole night. and they really suck in singing. stop it please~~~god!! i have a calculus test tomorrow and i haven't even really study for it yet. i don't know how i'm going to pass that test. i'd better pass it!! It's CALCULUS man. please give me a break! there has to be some form of outlet of my anger. finally, they take a break.sign~~~ it's so quiet suddenly!! my load. Go have a life people! i neeeed to go back to math so badly. see what happens tomorrow at 6pm. at UC east hall. i really want to do good in that test. wishes everybody else will do well on it too. Dav, Jane and Dex ...

Dexter, you are dead. Dave, you are dead. So am I ......

I just bombed my Linguistic test Something good came out of it though. I originally intended to drop the course after the test is finished. However, the measly amount I have studied today did an amazing job of allowing me to understand most of the questions. My problem? I didn't memorize the IPA alphabetes, so I had no idea what to write down for the Phonetic sections. I actually did most of the questions in the Morphology section, since that's the part I understood the best. It was actually simple. The moral lesson? Linguistic isn't nearly as hard as I had hyped up to believe. If I actually study for the rest of the term, then I have a very good chance of getting an ok mark. Hence, I'm not going to drop it. Now I can focus my energy on the Calculus and Economics tests. They shouldn't be too difficult....

Yahoooo... I got some powerful Diablo II Exp : Battle Net Characters...!!! They are awsome... Can't wait to go kick some butts... hm... Doh! forgot to study again... Doh! MAT test in two days... Doh! CSC assignment is almost due... Doh! 7 Journals due tomorro... Doh! 5 page Essay Due in a week... Doh! STA exam on Monday... Doh! got so much other stuff to do too... Doh! I just wasted another 7 hours on website stuff... Ahhh oh boy...Hmm... I wonder how am I going to this two weeks...!!! ?

Made the first website in my life. http://individual.utoronto.ca/freejiamao/ It didn't take me very long since itself is pretty crappy...But yeah, this is remarkable...My purpose was to get somewhere to store my timetable (in case somebody is curious), but right now i found it soo intriguing......I like the feeling seeing all my files uploaded, and I like to see the pages in my machine becoming public. ;) maybe this is my new continent of interest :) I can't control DW very well, but I'll be the master of it soon! muahahaha :P Oh man before I become a master, I have to complain about the tests...math test on Thursday, economics test on next Monday while the huge hard A3 CS assignment due on the same day....crap...I'll be dead!!!!!! this weekend I was supposed to study HARD, but....I end up doing nothing...:'( study ah study......

Woke up at 3pm today....got a Linguistic test tomorrow...I havn't even started to study yet. It's 6:40pm now.....well I cleaned my room, that's something productive I've done. Oh boy, I'm so screwed tomorrow. I hate Linguistics...

Yo Dav, congratulations for having a new+new camera.....MY MONEY!! lol......welcome crystal...yeah It's been a hard day...A3 is harder than A2 i think...BA is a nice building, and Adam(the head TA) was there...yeah he's ok, sometimes he's nice, sometimes he's rude. Only because he's somehow goodlooking and hardworking, I respect him. Yo someone don't be crazy for him! ;) Sigh I've been working on my ass for 8 hours today...exhausted :( I think I'll go to bed soon...... PS: congratulations to Crystal for the reason-you-know. I'm so happy of you. :)

Where did you stole the money from ? Boy ? (just kidding... LOL) Good to hear that you got a digiCam... Congradulations... Well, Time to get back to the not so hard CSC assignment 3. I can't belive I play so much games... I waste all my time on games, so much preshious time... this whole Saturday was wasted on DiabloII exp. But good thing I am at a very high level right now.. hehe.. Doh. forgot to study...

I switched my camera to a Canon Powershot A30 My god, I can't believe the difference in quality. Sure I had to pay a little extra, but it's so worth it. The LCD screen on the camera alone is infinitly better. So clear, so good! There are so many new features too, I can adjust almost everything, except for the focus. Love it!

hi, David, nice to be invited so late ~~haha, i'm just kidding. you guys are so lucky man, (you guys means you and dex), know stuff like creating your own website , and yo u can invite people to visit your website, to see your photes, and read your writings, and even wirte crazy stuff here. Comp Science people rocks !!haha, although i suck at cs, i 'm glad i have some friends who are good at it( i mean it, haha). ok, stop here. i will come and wondering around again!:)

Out of pure impulsiveness, I bought a digital camera last night. BUT IT DOESN'T F***ING WORK! Why doesn't it? I don't know. It works fine at the place I bought it, but it refuses to transfer the files to my computer. ARGH I hate this, why can't anything I do out of impulse ever turn out the way I want? Maybe this is why I'm never as impulsive as Adam, because I'm usually punished for it. Eck, someone up there doesn't like me... I think I'll either 1. return the camera and get my money back and make the salesperson and I very unhappy or 2. get a different brand I think I'll go with 2. I hate unhappiness.

Sleepy, sleepy, sleepy. I slept from 2:30 to 6:30 to make up the lack of sleeping from this week. (esp last night) But apparently the quaility of it was pretty low....Um my brain can't think straight about the meaning of my life now...too lazy to think, so why bother? Let the recent moment be great, that's all I want. (short-sighted?) oh well...... Good night, ciao, see you guys later.

There is one thing I keep on wondering.... and that's what is the meaning of my life? But at this moment, I don't even have time to wonder... So much WORK... Essay, Test, Assignment, Exam, Quiz, Reading, etc... "God dog on it !!!" so much... !!! Ahhh... boy oh boy... Oh yeah, hey, it's finily my turn to get the P.H.D. After seening everyone getting their, now it's my turn... HAHAHAHA... Doh *(got calculus test the night before commancement)

I can belive I wasted 5 hours trying to make this stupid new web site (my 23rd Personal Site)..... Doh! if you want to see how far it went... it's at http://individual.utoronto.ca/dexl/web5/

Er...didn't do as well as I hoped on the computer science assignments I think I know where I went wrong -- those stupid comments. I didn't follow the required style at all for the last two. (The first assignment didn't require good comments, hence I got above 90 ) Crap Crap Crap Crap Crap! Now I gotta go and look up good commenting style again. God I hate comments. I didn't do very well on the mid-term, but considering my mark comparing to everyone else's, I suppose I did alright. It's higher than Tan's and Katerynas, so....

Oh CRAP!! I typed so much and when I clicked post & publish it said something about system error and now everything is gone!! damn......oh anyways, yeah I got back at 4:30am, and it's been a great and fun halloween night! The new college party was so cool cuz it's different; and i went there with "him" and his best friend...oh well, it's him again...you know the feeling that something is so close to you but you'll never actually get it?? right i felt that way...I knew crying is not good, so i wiped my tears away and pretended I wasn't sad...man I drank so much alcohol today...I've never drunk this much in my whole life! And finally I felt kinda dizzy and couldn't walk straight :P But yeah we did have dun...my sadness went away quickly and the funniest thing was we saw many ppl making out then we started to cry" Hey we are jealous!" ;) ...and i saw ppl smoking weed. actually I never thought weed smelled like that! (i thought it'd be much sweeter) Yeah I'm too lazy to write everything again now, since it's a little late...sorry dav I called you at 3:30 when i thought it was 2:30...did i wake you up? :P anyways, yeah, the party was fun, the female DJ was hot, and those two guys are great. I love them. Before that, thank you Dav and Dex, you made my night perfect. the game was fun although I sucked :P I love you two too... Ok have to go now...it's not joking that i have class at 11 later today...:P good night

It's getting harder and harder to be cheerful with the tests looming in the distance. I admit I did feel a little irritated by many little things today. Which isn't like me at all, when did I become so....so...irritable? I should be ashamed. In other news, Judo was awsome today. We did some freestyle groundwork with a partner, which was really fun. I think I'm better at groundwork than with throws, which isn't what I expected at all. Plus I finally got my Gi today. Now I don't have to be the only one in the class wearing a T-shirt. Yup, it's great to be able to work out and strech my muscles. I was itching for some physical activity for a week now. I'm definitly not the kind of person who can sit and study all the time. Saturday - Kendo, Judo and Kungfu! Yay!!!!

Hmm... how come no one notice my new hair style??? maybe it's always like this.... hm... Doh!

20 loves? Can they really be called love, Dex? I've had .... a few crushes ( ok, one ) on girl(s), but love? At that age? hardly. Did we, or at least did I know what love is at that age? I think not. It was at most infatuation. As time passed, It became indifferent to me whether or not I would end up with this person. As long as she's happy, I was and still is content. ( Or maybe I'm afraid of commitment, whichever ). Nostalgia? Yes, I'm nostalgic all the time. I miss the small book stand that was on my way home from school in China. I miss how LiWenJun, YanHuaWei and I would zig zag through the LiangShuiJing market to go home, while my mom would look for me everywhere on the main road. I miss the games I used to play with YanHuaWei on the way home. I miss the little "barbeque" I had in the big open space in TiYuan ( where I used to live in China) with RenPing and YanHong. I miss playing with JiangHongYi and bunch of other kids in TiYuan when the power goes off at night. I miss the last fireworks I had with my mother before fireworks were banned in ChengDu. I miss the dangerious little ally way we had to walk through to go home from school in grade 3. I miss the old tomb me and YanHuaWei discovered and were always too frightened to go close to..... I miss many many things. Sometimes I would ly under a canopy of trees, looking aimlessly at the sunlight bouncing off of and squeeze through the leaves. I would reminicent how life was and would've been as the wind sways the branches, uncover little patches of light that shimmer into my eyes. Then a cold wind would blow through my bones, and shock me back to reality. I would then realize that life have to, and will go on. Ok, I think I'll stop myself before I start losing it and start writing an autobiography. To think that I told the others to not make their posts too private -__- Damn you Dex for bringing out my emotional side! That's my final words before I go to sleep. What about the point of my argument? I forgot...

Ok so now I'm happy and bored so i decided to write something here (guan shui!)...this font is cool!! It's my favorite arial!(what the hell...it's Verdana?!) lol....yeah Dex is soo crazy and his record is so hard to break !!(40?? they'll be in my next life!) I'd rather be picky and choose the best one to be my mate ;) The guy I had/have a crush on just called me and instead I talked with his friend (!) for half an hour..things are getting weird ...I know i have ZERO chance but i can't control myself...Anyways, it's not the time to complain, right? Um..gotta write some news... news news....Dav allowed me to write how mean he is ;) i guess we had a fight? and I was mad for his stupidity and dumbness...lol...I'm kidding...he just misunderstood me and I was mad because he's suppposed to be one of my best friends~~meh it's cool now ...hehe..Dav I love you so don't you mind this! hehe...

Dav is lazy...he's trying to pass the mission of writing journals to us (i.e.poor friends)...but, yeah, I like this font...so maybe when I'm happy and bored I'll write something here. lol......

Ola...test test test

jee I wish I had the luck and look and mind like Dav.. well guess not...Doh!

remembering the Simpsons song "la la la la la la la la Home Work... la la la la la la la Home Work" Doh!

Hahaha... funny, I am doing....... Doh! better get back to the damn hard Calculas assignment...

I got 3 tests/midterms next week. Argh! I try not to show that the pressure is getting to me, but it is. On top of that, my lower lip hurts like hell from the canker sore that developed from the cuts I got when Bryzire backfisted me during sparring. That guy isn't as easy to avoid when he start to fight with full speed/power. I actually had to focus and use some effort to put him down. Anyways, ouch......It hurts to eat, it hurts to talk, it even hurts when I smile! So this week, I pretty much appears like a sombre and quiet guy who never smiles and eats very slowly. I'm turning into Dex so to speak. Oh, for some reason I suddenly feel like digging up IL2-Sturmovik and play that all the time. That and F/A-18 Korea and all those sims. I'm also hooked on Tekken 3, those guys fight like me sometimes!! Ah crap, hell of a time to be hooked on games. *repeat to self* Must study, must study, must study.....

Bumped into Jay today, havn't seen him for months. His arm is better now, but.....He got arrested, his mother called the cops on him, or so he told me. Why? I don't know, probably something to do with his frustration of his inability to do anywork now that he seriously wounded his arm. He was living in that Homeless shelter place beside where I live since Monday, cause his mother won't take him back. When I bumped into him, he was going to find a place to live. I hate to see his life getting worse and worse, but I feel powerless to help him. Goddamn it.....��ɶ�....

Yesterday was my birthday. I'm 19 now, finally. My birthday present? Two bottles of Japanese plum wine and one bottle of sake. One bottle of plum wine was from Jane, and the others were from Adam. Talk about scoring big :) Eva( Lin, not Su ) and Yilun bought me lunch at a japanese restaurant. They ordered so much food, it was the first time I ate so much sashimi in one meal :) That was probably the best birthday present I got yesterday, I mean how often does two cute girls buy you a big lunch anyways? :P So yeah, I'm 19 now, wow. Next thing I know, I won't be a teenager anymore...

Just handed in my Calculus assignment for this week. I'm once again relieved of the pressure of school work, for now. Yes, I do feel guilty about not updating this blog for such a long time. That's why I'm here isn't it? Nothing much happened really, there was a Sociology test on Tuesday. I did alright, considering the fact that I havn't went to any lectures for 2 weeks now. Seriously, if the prof is going to read off of the textbook -- which he wrote -- all term, then what's the point of going? Sit in an uncomfortable chair for 3 hours and constantly be reminded how I can better spend that time? He puts the "extra" stuff on the course website for god's sakes. The weather is getting a bit too cold for bike riding now. I thought I was going to lose my hands today after riding in the wind. Sadly, I have no gloves, yet. From what I heard, csc108 ( the computer science course ) 's midterm was really hard. Almost everyone I know who are in that class are complaining to me about how bad they did. Haha, I probably know more about the materials/assignments in that course than most of the actual students in that. I've helped out with at least 5 people with their work already. I don't mind, it's good for me. It'll make my foundamentals more solid. The new assignment in computer science looks hard. We have to make queues out of linked lists and manage simulated page files. Now you can see how my life is these days. Basically all school work. Well that and Kendo, Judo and Kungfu. Seriously, where am I going to find time for a girlfriend :P

I bought 6 DVDs during the weekend, that's a total of $50 wasted. I was working for the SEAS booth for the Senior Day 2002 in the Culture Center. I owe SEAS 6.5 hours of work, so I needed to make up for it. After work, I planned to head home directly. Then for some reason I decided to check out the video shop there instead. Well, an hour later, you can guess what happened. It was such a great deal, 3 DVDs for $25 tax included. I initially only wanted to buy 3 of them, but then the movie "Laputa Castle in the Sky" caught my eye. I was under the impression that the movie itself ( made by Studio Ghibli in 1986 ) was never realeased either domistically in Japan or Internationally on DVD. However, there it was, a DVD copy of the movie, right there in front of me. I just knew I had to get it, so instead of paying for the $15 on the price tag, I decided to go for the $25 special, pretty smart eh? Here's what I got: My Sassy Girl MY Wife is a Gangster Laputa, Castle in the Sky Spirited Away (the Japanese version, so it's "Sen to Chihiro no Kamikakushi" ) Gojoe ( The Record of the War of the Five Bridge, at least that's what the title says, the Chinese on the cover says "Ying Xiong" or "Hideo" for hero ) Musa ( or Warrior ) Among all these movies, I only regret buying Gojoe. Such a boring movie with plot that doesn't make sense. The sword fighting sucks too, Japanese should stick with making anime and love stories, not action movies. My Wife is a Gangster is ok, but it's not as good as some people told me. Everything else I really enjoyed watching. Oh, go get Musa if you can, it's pretty cool.

Went to Xiong Ji's birthday party for some good'ol authentic SiChuan hotpot. I went with Henry after practice. A lot of people showed up. All 10 - 13 of us crammed into Xiong Ji's small dorm. We were really loud, to the point where I felt sorry for his neighbours. XiongJi, Terrence and I are the only SiChuanese there, so we enjoyed the hotpot quite a bit. The others aren't so used to the extreme spiciness of the hotpot, it was funny seeing everyone else's faces all red. Henry drank two bottles of Smirnoffs and was totally wasted (what a light drinker). The party ended around 2:30AM. Xiong Ji sure is lucky, to have so many people celebrating his birthday. Mine probably will be..myself and I.

Know what I really hate? Those scary animated clips that seems to be popular these days. You know, those ones that lets you stare at them for 30seconds and then show you a frelly freaky pic? And those little flash movies that starts with a happy little song, then shows you the freaky pic of that kid from The Exorcist? I hate those! HATE HATE HATE! I was scared shitless by one of them.

Martial Art Related Stuff: Judo is fun. Yup, I really enjoyed the Judo class today. Learnt basic holds and break falls. Afterwards I went straight to the club and practiced some leg work with Bui. Either I suck now, or Bui got better, but I was pretty bad with the leg work. I must've relied too much on my hand techniques and havn't practiced my legs enough. I got a bit better though towards the end. Gotta practice more....

Didn't update my blog for a while again. This is slowing growing into a habit. I'm happy to say that everything are finally getting back on track. After a crazy Frosh week where everything are in total choas. I've finally found order in my life, and organized it the way I want. My room is finally in perfect order, now that the terrible spell of the evil fridge is gone. My classes and work are relatively organized too. However, I growing sense of laziness is creeping back into my life. I feel so comfortable in my room now, I can just fall asleep on the bed at any time. The people in my house are pretty cool too. Met Dan (or is it John?) of the second floor, and Tiro of the first floor. They seem like pretty good people. I hardly see the other guys in the house though. I fell off of my bike today. My foot slipped out of the stupid pedal while I was taxing it. I tripped over it, (or it tripped over me) and I had to jerk my body backward and execute a forward roll on the ground to lessen the impact on the concrete sidewalk. My left armpit however was less fortunate, the bike handle caught it and gave it a nasty bruise/laceration. Good thing I didn't hurt any pressure points. I sat through Calculus lecture with the wound stabbing at me. I suppose it could've gone a lot worse, but ouch it hurts. I swear, that beat up bike will be the death of me someday...

The yakinori I bought is crap My first attempt at making sushi is...interesting shall we say. I mean I've done all the reading, and know exactly how the procedure is. I understand most of the theories behind making a sushi. I've even carefully observed professionals at work in Japanese restaurants. I mean what can possibly go wrong? I guess I didn't expect my yakinori to be more flexible than latex. You know how those real chefs have ultra sharp katana-like kitchen knives, and can cut almost anything in a single stroke? Well I'm not a real chef see, but I don't think my stainless steel Japan-made kitchen meat cleaver is bad quality either. Cutting the nori however, was like cutting a piece of cloth with a butter knife. No, not those cool butter knifes with jagged cutting edge to them. I'm talking about the ones that are smooth and can't even cut frozen butter. So let this be a lesson to you future sushi makers out there, never buy crap yakinori.

I finally moved my computer into my new home. Dex came over and helped me, and it was quite a breeze. After we went and met up with Jane and Crystal, who are friends we met in UT. Ah, that reminds me, it's been a week since I've updated this blog. Frosh week was quite fun, if not a little tiring. A lot of group chanting went on. I'm never one to enjoy making such a scene, but since I did pay $130 for this, I really went all out and enjoyed it. The highlights included a baseball game, in which we exchanged insulting chants with the likes of Seneca and St.Mike Colleage guys. It was great fun, and we didn't notice the game going on in the same time at all. Yup, chanting for all nine innings is a LONG time. BTW, Jays won 4-3 Whitesox. Other memoriable attractions include a boat cruise, in which a dance took place. Water day, where we got really wet, and I played an awsome game of Ultimate Frisby. I met so many people, it was great. If you ever wonder if Frosh week is worth the money, I say it is. It is a little quirky, the food is kinda bad, but if you can put down your normal goody goodness (I'm assuming you have goody goodness, as you did get into a university), you'll have a blast and meet a lot of very awsome people. Gopy and Eva don't know what they are missing :)

Last day of freedom before University begins. I moved some clothes and blanket to my place. Yesterday Bui, Khai and I moved the rotting fridge out of my room after an hour of intense struggle. There was nothing like the satisfaction of 3 kungfu guys working hard and accomplish such a task, as the fridge was heavy as hell and the hall way was very very narrow. It was funny how kungfu played such an important role in our everyday life. I see Bui going into a horse stance as he attempted to move the fridge, and I found myself unconciously using forward stance and waist power to slow down the frige as it came down the stairs Today was less productive however. We basically bummed around Korean town. Last day of freedom before University begins it is.

A tiring day of cleaning and kungfu. Went to my new place to clean it. The place is pretty dirty. I especially need to rid of the big broken fridge that's just there to take up space and spew molded air into the room. I'm really moving out....whoa..... Kungfu was really tiring as usual. Good training today. Oh, hurt my thumb during broadsword sparring :\

Things to do: Fix New Bike Clean up new place Move stuff into new place Go see movie with the gang As you can see, the last thing I should be doing is to go online and start blogging. But still....

Once again, I find myself wanting to draw some comics/manga. In the past, whenever I try to start, I always try to read my mangas for inspiration. Eventually I would end up just simply lying in bed reading them rather than drawing. I found this placed called "Keenspace" online where you can signup and it allow you to update mangas easily. It looks interesting. Maybe that will strengthen my will to draw. Plus I don't have to worry about Adam's moronic restriction on contents and ruin my "artistic integrity" (hehe, com'on, I get to say it sometimes too)

Hm....Just realized I havn't wrote anything in two days. Strange how it didn't seem so, I guess my life have been so routine in the past few days that nothing is reminding me that the day ended or a new day started. I've basically just worked, went to a meeting then went to Kungfu. Work: Ok, turns out my work doesn't end today, it ends on Friday, sort of. Apperantly my counting system is different from Rebecca's....oh well. Meeting: Went to this "Regent Park Revitalization" meeting yesterday night. Basically Regent Park is this run-down district of Toronto. The worst part of Toronto if you will. Although I don't live there (thank god), I am intrigued by the prospect of this project. Once completed, it probably will benefit Toronto as a whole. The meeting was actually kind of funny. Once the hosts started to ask the various opinions and suggestions of various ethnic groups, a guy from India(?) stood up and talked for the longest time without stop. Even when the host asked him to stop and give other groups a chance to speak, he still wouldn't stop. I guess he like public speaking a lot :D. The I was a big annoyed at the First Nation's group. The lady just kept reminding everyone that she is First Nations, and always make sure we don't forget that by constantly reminding us that she is First Nations in every single sentence. Ok, guess what lady, I don't care! People are people, we are all the same. Being a different ethnic group means nothing! I don't care if you are Chinese, Somalian, First Nations whatever. Don't constantly bring that up! If you want to be treated as equals, then start by viewing yourself as equals. Stop reminding everyone here that you are different! *ok, I'm gonna get some flame for that* Kungfu: I told the guys I have meeting today, and that I couldn't make it for practice. Alas, I still couldn't refuese the temptation, and went to the club anyways. It was fun, a bit of sparring with the guys. Bui and Adam showed up, and Bui's new haircut is butt-ugly. I'm focusing my practice primarily on TaiJi and XingYi principles and techniques these days. Also I need to work on my basic strength and speed exercies. I feel some of my techniques are not as clean and crisp as it could be. Gotta work on that.

Went back to the club after a week of absence. When I got there, there was a note on the door that said "will be back at 8". I figured it's only half-an hour away, so I head for the parking lot and started to practice myself. I went through the Xing Yi Pi Quan and Beng Quan movements, and then practiced Yang style TaiJi from start to finish without stopping, for the first time. Geez the TaiJi form is long, took me at least 20 minutes to do it, my back was killing me. Yup, nothing like a good afternoon of practice.

Went to CNE yesterday, didn't do much really. We got there by 4:30PM. That's me, Bui and Khai by the way. We went to see Sida and Mei, who were working there. Sida hanged out with us during her break. Then we walked around for 8 hours, having no desire to go on any of the rides. I got some free food from my old employer, ate some really spicy and good chicken wings, and drank what probably is the worst bubble tea I've ever had. So yeah, didn't do much that's worth mentioning. Think I'll go to the anime convention again today, just to get my money's worth.

While I'm waiting for Bui to call me when he's ready to go to CNE, here's what happened yesterday: After work, I headed straight for the CNanime convention. I didn't want to pre-order any tickets, so I decided to buy it at the door. Oh boy did I regret that decision. When I got to the convention, which was around 6:30PM, I discovered a huge line of people (or anime freaks) waiting to buy the tickets. The line was at least 200 meters long! It took me about 2 minutes to simply walking to the end of it to line up. On my way, I saw so many people dressed in those anime costums, trying to imitate their favourite anime characters ( can anyone say freaky? Otaku? Nerd? ). There was quite a few girls dressed in those skimpy outfits that we so often see on anime characters (hey, don't let you imagination run wild here, it's anime, not hentai). I had no choice but to wait in line for about one and half hours to get the tickets. Which I guess isn't all that bad considering the length of the line. Unfortunately, by the time I actually bought the ticket for 40 dollars (it's for three days), I was so tired and hungry that I had absolutely no desire to look around in the convention. All I wanted to do was to find a place and rest. However, having waited for so long and spent so much money, I forced myself to enjoy the convention, and started to look around to see if I can find anything that fascinated me. Predictebly, most of the animes and mangas there are the popular series that I loath so much. I guess I really can't expect much out of a North American anime/manga convention. I asked around for any works of Mitsuru Adachi or Urusawa Naoki, but barely anyone even know who they are. One store that sold mangas in Japanese knows about them, but they don't have their works in stock. It seems that I can order them from their store, so I'll check that out when I have the time/money. Most of the items there are way too expensive for my blood, a Do As Infinity CD is 40 dollars, s DVD movie is 40 dollars, a single manga is 10+ dollars (That's in Japanese, an English one is 20+). Geesh! I found Tuyet and Phong sitting behind their desk drawing pictures and selling them for 50cents a piece. Both of them were exhausted, and Tuyet claim that she haven't slept for 24 hours, and that she won't be going to Luke's party. Interesting note, there was a lot of people doing what they were doing. However, their drawings are better than most of the other people's, with the exception of true professionals. I saw so many people who sit there and try to sell their imitations of famous works (i.e Rorouni Kenshin, Dragon Ball Z...etc). Is it just me, or is that really sad? Although they have some talent, most of them will never see the light of the day since they are doing nothing but copying other's work. I finally started to act like a giggling little girl when I saw the sword stand. Upon closer inspeciton, I discovered that they sold nothing but fantasy swords, Bah! All the guys there were simply impressed how those swords "looks" really cool, nevermind none of them are authentic, or even sharp. I checked out a Chinese style sword shaped like the green destiny. I could swear the scabbard couldn't block any sword slach, it looked so flimsy. I checked the sword, the middle portion was warped, and the sword wasn't very straight. The whole blade was flimsy, and didn't feel very spring like. I finally checked the balance of the sword, and noticed it was all wrong. A real Chinese martial sword should have it's centre of gravity at one-third of the body length (that's from the tip of the blade to the bottom of the handle) from the handle. However, this sword's balance rests at about 1/4 the body length. I looked up, and saw the owner looking at me, suprised that I was doing all these routine checks on the sword. None of the others were even thinking about it, they were simply astoned by the fact that the swords look oriental. Ok, I know I shouldn't whine so much as the dismal state of the weapons, this is an Anime convention after all, not a martial-arts market. Still, paying 60+ dollars for these cheap rip-offs seems like a um...rip-off. I was so hungry by the end of the convention, so I decided to buy a Coffee-Chrisp from a vending machine. When I tried to grab the bar from the bottom of the machine after it dropped from the shelf, I discovered that the opening was blocked. WTF! The opening simply refused to open more than a merely 2 cm wide gap. I just wasted $1.25 on a Coffee-Chrisp which is now lying helplessly at the bottom of the machine for me to see. Arghhh! Eventually, the convention came to a close for the day, and the announcer kicked everyone out. I went straight to Luke's party, and bought a big bottle of Pepsi and a big bag of chips on the way there. Gopy, Eva, Jennifer, Sean, Tyler, Sean and others were there. I talked a lot with Gopy, since I haven't seen him since graduation. Gopy and Eva went home at around 11:30PM. I went home an hour later. Very long day. I definitly will go to the convention again, since I spent so much effort getting the tickets.

Just back from Luke's party. Oh boy am I tired. Gotta go and sleep now, I can barely open my eyes. I'll update on what happened today..er...yesterday tomorrow...er....today.....ack, I'll just update you people later.

Ah, what a lazy day at work today. Went to eat lunch with Dihn and Ivy, supposedly it's me and Ivy's "fairwell" lunch. I guess the food is as good as it can be, seeing how I'm not all that excited about Vietnanmese food. Going to be a busy day today. I'm going to the CNanime convention tonight, and then to luke's party hopefully with Tomoe, Phong and Tuyet...if I find them at the convention that is. Still need to call LiWenJun about going to CNE on saturday. She doesn't know if she will work on saturday or sunday (apperantly her job is "on call", guess you can't be too picky if you are working with only a student VISA *ops, um...ignore the last comment* ) That girl is not giving me anything to work with here. Katherine called yesterday and told me she can't come on saturday becasue she has to work until 5:00. That's right 5! Apperantly she can't go outside after dark, which is around 8:30PM nowadays. Well, I guess I'm partially relieved that she can't go. At least I don't have to worry about John or Dex beating me up. Yes, busy busy day.

I decided to take a nap for 30 minutes and then go to kungfu practice at 7:00. Next thing I knew, I woke up at 9:30. Great, just great. I suppose that's good for me, since I badly need time to rest. I havn't gone to practice for a week now, that's not that good. I discovered that I'm fascinated with anything that require hardwork and dedication to master. First there was kungfu, then there's learning a new language (Japanese for now), now I'm interested in picking locks (hey, it's a craft with a history). Today, while I was buying lunch for my co-workers at Asahi, I was suddenly intregued with making Sushi. I know I need to learn some form of cooking now that I'm moving out, but I'm primarily interested in it because I know the hardwork and patience required to learn such a skill. Ack, too many things I want to learn, too little time...

Moved bags and bags of teddy bears to a fancy house today. By bags, I don't mean those large shopping bags, I mean HUGE plastic bags, even bigger than garbage bags. After that, I fixed Elain's broken file drawer. The two back wheels popped out so the drawer falls out when it's pulled out too far. I managed to hammer them in with a wrench. Yeah that's right, a wrench. Apperantly there is a terrible lack of tools in the office. The socket for the wheels are horribly disfigured due to the amount of stress the heavy files put on them, I had to hammer them to the right shape while trying to attach the wheel in the same time, had some fun there. After that, Elain asked me if I know how to open a door without keys, I said no, I don't know how to pick locks. Apperantly, one of her clients locked her key in the apartment. I spent the next hour trying to learn how to pick locks off the internet. The theory is very simple, but the practice is hard as hell. Hey, gimme two weeks, and I'm sure I'll master it (Although the client need to get in tonight). So there you have it, my new goal: Learn to pick locks.

Went and did another translation this morning. The guy I was translating is one of the worst drivers I've ever seen. He accelerates and decelerates abrubtly with no transition in between, I thought I was going to die on the highway. Kungfu related: Last day of TaiJi class for August. It'll start again in September, hopefully there will be some more cute girls in it next month :P. Cleared up some questions regarding the end of the form, specifically ShangBuQiXing(�ϲ����ǣ� and WanGongSheHu���乭�仢�� for those who care. Learnt a lot today, I think I'm getting better too.

You know, I should really stop sleeping at around 3:00AM every night. I was basically sleep-walking all day at work. Hehe, at least Terrence was no better. He had two huge bags under his eyes, nice to know I have a comrade. Richard and Rebecca dragged all 5 of us summer workers to Buffet King for lunch as a "going away" present. The food was quite good, and I ate a wack load of food. Then they dragged us to the monthly meeting and made us sit there for 3 hours. Haha, I'm starting to feel more and more at home with these people. Although my job will end in the next two weeks, I think I will "work" there for a much longer period of time. Their "SEAS" shirts alone are worth it.

I wanted to go to CNE today, but couldn't contact anyone. I realized that I forgot Bui and Adam are away on the Kungfu trip (oh, I wanted to go so much! Stupid job!), I couldn't contact Katherine, Luke had no money, LiWenJun had to work (her exact words:"Why do you always contact me with these things when I'm busy, but never when I was bored?"), Khai could've gone since he lives at his friend's house and it's only 10 minutes away (I wonder why *roll eyes*, since Sida is working at the CNE this year *Khai, please don't kill me* ) and everyone else I know don't pick up their phones. I must admit, I didn't feel like going when LiWenJun told me she couldn't go. The truth is I don't specifically want to do anything at CNE, since I already worked there for the past 3 years. It's just the fact that I really want to go there with my old friends from China, since I've never done that with them before. Ha, what a lame nostalgic loser I am, oh well....

Ah...what a lazy lazy saturday. Nothing much happened really. I was thinking about getting a cellphone instead of paying for a landphone. I went around the net and checked out all the options for all the various companies. I think I like the Bell Solo option the best. I'm not going to get one until I settle into my place first though, so it will have to wait a month or two. Going to CNE tomorrow? Maybe.

The deposite was paid and the lease was signed. The die is cast, and I'm moving in on September 1st. I got two weeks to prepare to move, before that, I want to have a little fun. I guess I will go to the CNE (Canadian National Exibition, for those of you who don't live in Toronto), since that is the most exciting thing that's happening right now. The least I can do is to go and make fun of Sida and Bui, who are working there. Just finished watching Magnolia. Wow it's a good movie, so long and so good. The ending is interesting, since everything turned out for the better after a suprise rain of frogs. I guess this symbolizes miracle or divine intervention, and that families and love strengthens and forgives during times of crisis. It also reminded me that this is just a movie, and have a more pessimistic spin that in reality, miracles are just as rare as it sounds. oh, and Super Troopers is hilarious.

I went to check out this rather nice place today. The room is for the same amount as the one at Jarvis+Gerrard, except the room is huge, so big that I can't imagine what to do with it. It's about 5 minutes walking from UofT. There is central air conditioning too. The only downside was the rather crude bathing facility. It consisted a rubber hose and a bathtub, great no? Well the colours of the room is butt ugly, and it smells like paint. The floor is rather bad as well. I decided I'll rent the place because of its AC and closeness to U of T. By the time I called, the lady told me they already booked it for another family. So I guess this one is not to be. I called and confirmed with the place I saw yesterday. I'm guess someone up there wants me to live in that place, so why fight it? I'm gonna pay the deposite and sign the lease tomorrow, yes, it's happening...

Just got back from the place I was looking at. Well, now I don't know if I should rent the place or not. I mean I like it, it's definitly big enough for me. The only downside is that there's no AC, so the room is hot as hell. I don't mind the heat though, since I like summer. But um.... well I think I'm a little startled by the fact that I can just go ahead and rent the place tomorrow if I choose. This is a big decision! I'm gonna be living there for the next 6 months! My life will be altered by how it turns out (reader: hey hey, not so much drama ). Well I really don't know now. On the one hand, I really want to rent the place. On the other hand....I dunno if it's a good idea. So confused, so confused...What to do...what to do.....

Still looking for a place to rent. It looks like I'll have to move out now. Not a choice anymore. My family is selling our store and move up to Missasaga where our house is. So I'll have to find a place by September 19 or else I'm screwed. Well, I have no problem with it, since I planned to move out anyways. Called up a place near our current location, taking a look at it tomorrow. KungFu related: Went to TaiJi class today after 2 weeks of absence. I must say I didn't miss much, since I am pretty much done the first form. As always, people kept asking me to show them the form. I was fine with it before, but now it's starting to irritate me a bit, since I always show them the begining of the form, I get no practice with the end of it at all. I guess I gotta practice in my spare tme now.